These Broken Years

by Mad Mar Walker

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"These Broken Years" includes recordings made from 1985 through 2009 with three tracks cut this past year. The tracks were recorded with a variety of equipment, in Maine, New Hampshire and Connecticut. Watch the blurb on each track for information about when and where. On the track, Wishing Stone, I had assistance from the always incredible Dickie Tilton, (dickietilton.com )who tickled the ivories, created the keyboard arrangement, and who recorded that track. I also had assistance with Old Back Road, and The Sea is Filled With Dreams, which were recorded by Pierce Campbell (piercecampbell.com, an all-around class A performer and a former state Troubador) , in his CT studio.

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released January 1, 2010

All songs written by Mar Walker.
Vocals and guitar - Mar Walker.
Wishing Stone, keyboards - Dickie Tilton.
Wishing Stone keyboard arrangement by Dickie Tilton.

Home studio recordings, except for:
• Wishing Stone, recorded in Dickie Tilton's New Hampshire studio (1990)
• Old Back Road and • the Sea Is Filled With Dreams recorded in Pierce Campbell's studio in Prospect, CT (2009)
Cover design by Puzzled Dragon Press

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Track Name: Ready to Fall
READY TO FALL
(Stranded in the Starlight)

by Mad Mar Walker

VERSE 1
They say I've gone raving crazy
more than a little frayed
around the edges
Say baby, have you ever
loved a lunatic before?
Say, have you got any spearmint
chewing gum? Could you give
a little baby? Could you
spare me some?
I was unraveling like a worn out rug
I was broken and begging...

REFRAIN:
Stranded in the Starlight
Hollow in the empty night
Say, didn't we go
just a little bit wacko?
On tip-toe on a tight rope,
weren't we ready to fall?
On tip toe on a tight rope,
ready to Fall.

VERSE 2
Every day in those days
was a little bit of anguish
I was pretending to myself
that I did not love you.
That kind of thing piles up
like dead leaves in the fall,
and winter wasn't far behind.
I lost my heart, then I lost my mind
I couldn't go forward.
I couldn't go back.
It was like being drawn and quartered,
tortured on the rack.

REFRAIN:
Stranded in the Starlight
Hollow in the empty night
Say, didn't we go
just a little bit wacko?
On tip-toe on a tight rope
weren't we ready to fall?
On tip toe on a tight rope,
ready to Fall.

VERSE 3
Oh baby you are like an
old burnt marshmallow,
a little crusty on the outside,
but your hiding heart
was oh so warm and sweet.
How could I love you?
How could I not?
Don't know if it was worth
all the trouble I got...
I knew, I knew I should
never let you in
How long could I resist
the sweet smell of your skin?

REFRAIN:
Stranded in the Starlight
Hollow in the empty night
Say, didn't we go
just a little bit wacko?
On tip-toe on a tight rope
weren't we ready to fall?
On tip toe on a tight rope,
ready to Fall.
Track Name: Lost Opportunity
LOST OPPORTUNITY

by Mad Mar Walker

I think of you in the middle of the night
but you're too far away
I can taste your mouth and
hear you purring in your sensual way
I don't suppose I will see you for a while
(Maybe you'll call)
You're busy chasing, I bet,
some little doll to match your style
(I wish it was me)
But I will chalk it up and write it off
as a lost opportunity.
Chalk it up, as a lost opportunity.

I not much good as a flirt
and I have never beena tease.
If I touch you at all
it's 'cause I'm willing to please.
Couldn't you smell the brimstone
that smokes up my soul?
I was to shy to ask.
I was hoping you wouldn't go...
It's not the times I've been wild
that I ever regret,
It's the loving I missed
I can't seem to forget.
And you must be
just as foolish as me;
we could have had it all
so very easily.

I read Dostoevsky and Nietzsche
with competent grace
but I even miss the obvious
when I read your face
I thought you were leaving
You thought I was messing with your mind
In the gripe of desire
we are deaf and dumb
and blind so blind
If you're willing spell it out
don't expect that I will guess
If we leave things to fate
fate will leave things a mess
So won't you please
take another look?
Some things are worth
the bit of trouble they took....

I think of you in the middle of the night
but you're too far away
I can taste your mouth and
hear you purring in your sensual way
I don't suppose I will see you for a while
(Maybe you'll call)
You're busy chasing, I bet,
some little doll to match your style
(I wish it was me)
But I will chalk it up and write it off

another disagreeable lesson that I've learned now
didn't even have the chance to get my self burned
Not this time. Chalk it up
as a lost opportunity.
Track Name: Where Are You Now?
WHERE ARE YOU NOW?

by Mad Mar Walker

I want to sit in your lap
I want to mess up your hair
Where are you now?

You call me up
You speak your words
but I hang up
I have not heard
where are you?
where are you?
where are you now?

I cannot see you
your face is blurred
I cannot free you
when your voice is slurred
I want to sit in your lap
I want to mess up your hair
where are you now

I stamp my feet
where are you?
where are you?
where are you?
where are you?
I cannot sleep
you talk was cheap
I want to sit in your lap
and mess up your hair
but where are you now?
Track Name: Wishing Stone (Long Pond)
WISHING STONE
(Long Pond is Cold)

by Mad Mar Walker

Long Pond is cold and clear.
I can see pine needles on the bottom from here.
White pine reach straight to the sky.
Their roots are twisted I bet their eyes are dry.
I tried to hard and I was far too kind.
I let you talk me right out of my mind.
You worn me smooth like a Wishing Stone.
You say you love me - well here i am,
You say you love me - right here I stand.
If you love me - why do I stand here alone?

Chilly rain taps down on my roof,
the sound brings back memories
that ache like a bad tooth.
It's doesn't get better, it never goes away.
Maybe I'd better find myself a dentist today.
I tried too hard, I cared far too much.
I think your heart was out to lunch.
You wore me smooth like a Wishing Stone.
You say you love me - well here i am,
You say you love me - right here I stand,
If you love me - why do I stand here alone?

Cathedral Ledge is a good place to cry,
a place of nature and healing
where the heart can fly.
White Mountains, in their blanket of snow,
make you forget the love that had to go.
When you look up at the stars at night
You know your heart will be allright
thought it's worn smooth as a Wishing Stone
You say you love me - well here i am
You say you love me - but it's right here I standI
If you love me - why do I stand here alone?
Track Name: Old Back Road
OLD BACK ROAD

by Mad Mar Walker

REFRAIN:
Just give me an old back road
and a beat up car
That will get me very far
I will ride to the nearest star
on an old back road and a beat up car

VERSE 1
Go where the trees are mighty,
and the road keeps disappearing.
Go where the birds are singing,
and the ruts in the road
keep your chasie ringing.

VERSE 2
Go where the woods surround you,
and the underbrush is growing.
Go where the woods are breezy,
and the smell of trees in the wind
makes the breathing easy.

VERSE 3
Walk in the mountain's shadow
through pines and over mosses.
Look where your road has brought you,
and see and smell and live
all the poems nature's taught you.
Track Name: The Sea Is Filled with Dreams
The Sea is Filled with Dreams

Dreams are so very fluid
Ethereal and flowing
Dreams always are in motion
and you can't know where they're going
They could be running down down
into the Storm Drains
the storm drains empty in the river
the river empties in the ocean
and the sea is filled with dreams
the sea is filled with dreams

Life is so very fragile
and filled with self-delusion
We think we know the story
but what we know might be illusion
We could be running down down
into the Storm Drains
the storm drains empty in the river
the river empties in the ocean
and the sea is filled with dreams
a million broken dreams

Love is like shadow-dancing
you step with what you think you see.
Your lover explains who he THINKS he is,
but what is the reality?
Love could take you to the clouds,
then it could rain you down down
into the Storm Drains
the storm drains empty in the river
the river empties in the ocean
and the sea is filled with dreams
the sea is alive with dreams.

Fish out a dream for me
Track Name: What I really wanted... (Kiss me)
What I Wanted....
(KISS ME)

by Mad Mar Walker

I can't think what to say
I'm all tangled up in nerves
and you go acting formal
talking business and throwing me curves
None of your serious, well-directed
intelligent conversation
ever missed me
but what i really wanted
was for you to kiss me.

I'm still sitting over here
You're sitting way over there
and in between is no-man's land
where nobody dares
Some folks move so smooth
oh I'm so shy
Can't you see my eyes
get misty.
I'm not much of a mover
so please
come over here and kiss me.

I guess I'm not your cup of tea
I'm not your brand of whiskey
You sure don't look nervous
You're sure NOT getting frisky.....

I can't think what to say
I'm all tangled up in knots
You sit there so damn cool
while I suffer with the hots
So folks move so smooth
Oh I'm so shy
can't you see my eyes
get misty.
Now you know what I wanted
So please
come over here and kiss me.
Track Name: It's love that makes you free
IT'S LOVE THAT MAKES YOUR FREE

by Mad Mar Walker

VERSE 1
Stubble bearded papa
what have you got to say?
We never did much talking anyway.
Half of what you tell me
I know that it's a like,
the other half is guaranteed to make me cry.

REFRAIN:
Love won't grow so easily
it's raging up like the sea
Love is the thing that pains your heart
and it's love that makes you free

VERSE 2
Weather can be sunny
Weather can be mean and bad
Love can be sweet, it can be sour and sad
Try to start a fire in the pouring rain
You can light the body -buddy can you light the brain.

VERSE 3
I've known my share of stubborn old men
One or two I'd like to see again.
Faces like sandpaper, hearts of stone
Breathing fire, they burn you right to the bone.
Track Name: We can't run, but we fly
PEGASUS

by Mad Mar Walker

Through history man dreamed to fly
but a reasonable man
does everything he can
to obey nature's rules
and progress is made
but the edge of the blade -
that's mad men and fools.
They're standing in the high place
with only rocks below.
They think they can do anything,
Lift those wings Pegasus
Let's go!

Somewhere flying
as you walk in the sun
your thoughts they run
so free
Somewhere flying
through a bold blue sky
ah you and I - we can't run -
ah but we fly!

Thoroughbred stallion,
he's got fire inside
on the wings of his pride
he takes the lead, sets the pace
until the wicked fates spoke
and a foreleg broke
but the stubborn horse finished the race
He's standing in the high place
with only rocks below
he thinks he can do anything
lift those wings Pegasus
Let's go!

Somewhere flying
as you walk in the sun
your thoughts they run
so free
Somewhere flying
through a bold blue sky
ah you and I - we can't run -
but we fly!

Lone wolves and wild leadmares
they can't quite belong
they can't hear the song of the pack
If you're different stand apart
If you're fierce and if you're smart
you will never go back!
You're standing in the high place
with only rocks below
You think you can do anything
Lift those wings Pegasus
Let's go!

Somewhere flying
as you walk in the sun
your thoughts they run
so free
Somewhere flying
through a bold blue sky
ah you and I - we can't run -
but we fly!